things that happen to this smo...

so i don't blog..

2007-05-31T11:22:00.000-05:00

this one's for you wes....

so i don't blog... just my human nature..... i have tons to say just too lazy to type it out..... i learned ALOT .... what did i learn? i'm too lazy to type that stuff out too..... just ask me.... and maybe i'll tell u back in TO.... BACK ON MONDAY!!!

hk day 1 - morning

2007-05-15T20:31:00.000-05:00

just gonna put pictures and some fun fun stuff :P no reflections, no thoughts, no comments.. just fun :P well maybe comments later.. BOOYA!! missin' TO/OS but loving HK and family :P

the picture on the left is me and my cousin "sum chai"... he's AWESOME!!! like me :D
the one on the right is a mcdonalds thing.. if you can't read it the top say "McDonald's lunch delivered instantly to your children at school prepare the delicious lunch with ease!" why didn't we get that as kids??

oh prices are HK$/7 = CDN$ - (corrected from /3, thx wes)

til next post

i got in...

2007-04-10T17:41:00.000-05:00

praise God :D

update...

2006-11-17T14:24:00.000-05:00

this one's for you darren.. just cuz you asked...

nothing's really going on... hahahaha.. what a boring life... it's busy but same old

God is GOOD!! he always is... if you wanna know what's going on with me just ask... and tell me to stop if i talk to much cuz A LOT is going on...

peace out guys...

update...

2006-10-10T16:49:00.000-05:00

so i've decided to update... and from now on i'm only going to update on what i see happening outside my window...

right now...

nothing....

still living...

2006-07-01T10:37:00.000-05:00

so it's been awhile since i blogged and man has a lot of things has happened...

let me say that God is good and He wants me alive...

so 2 things...

last week i was pitching in a softball game and the ball was hit right back at me right in the chest... right beneath the collar bone... i'll post a picture of the bruise when i get the picture...

last nite... helping with decorations i fell off a ladder... the ladder began to slide and i fell with it... somehow landed on my feet though... fell maybe one floor approx...

still living.... for God

praise Him i'm still alive...

ottawa, niagara and cherry vanilla coke...

2006-06-09T14:51:00.000-05:00

God is soooo GOOD!!! that's all i have to say....

He's been teaching and talking and i'm learning listen and understand... wow...

ottawa - God's working and i want to be part of it... 9 sermons, and 4 bibles studies in a day and a half... so much feeding

niagara - alias, i love you guys.. thanks for the best maid of the mist ride ever and the adventures of poncho man... God showed us His glory through his creation... wow...

cherry vanilla coke - i don't like cherry coke, i don't like vanilla coke, and when they combined it i didn't like it either.. but i drank 4 cups of it... don't know why.. it tasted horrible.. maybe i'll come up with something about it another day...

God is good... very good...

blessed...

sam wong(s)?

2006-05-24T10:02:00.000-05:00

be real...

sam wong children ministry
- kind, fun, crazy, patient, can get angry, immature, winged most of the time
sam wong worship
- sometimes prideful, leader, can be more prepared
sam wong infront of adults
- mature, polite, patient, kind, respectful
sam wong with the guys
- course joking, immature, crazy, idiotic, psycho sometimes, no shame
sam wong by himself
- no self-control, curious, many many other things...
sam wong with parents
- impatient, mean (sometimes), disobedient

how can one person be so different?

i know there is a time for everything but to be a man of God, with integrity, should i not be the same person everywhere? can i gossip about a person in one situation and be their best friend the next? can i be nice to aunties and uncles and go home arguing with my parents? can i teach kids to be nice and share and not be angry but go on the road with road rage?

who am i? am i real?

jer 29:11

2006-05-15T11:23:00.000-05:00

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

thanks anna for the great sharing...

i trust...

i'm sorry...

just tell me...

2006-05-11T00:41:00.000-05:00

so many times i'm left in the dark... with school, life, relationships, friends, jobs, i just want to know... why do i have to wait? if the answer is known how come you don't tell me?

i know i shouldn't question and that i should wait.. but it's not easy... plz God... show me why... plz...

done....

2006-05-10T11:56:00.000-05:00

as i finished my last exam last nite... i was just glad it was over with... marks and stuff aside i really don't know how i did.. but it's out of my hands now... i did my best and i trust :P

as summer begins.. few goals i want to set...

1. read half of the books i bought from last urbana (2003) before this years urbana
2. read bible / devos more consistently
3. be the best gov for lions as i can be
4. hold wickedly sickening (in a good way) BBQs
5. play as much WCIII before i put the CDs away again
6. love the kids at church
7. finish Need For Speed

i'm sure there's more but hey... i can only make so many goals.. the hard part is trying to finish these goals... time to start a book :D

*reading : "too busy not to pray"
*going to : play softball later today
*time : to publish post

seven...

2006-05-09T11:22:00.000-05:00

... hours to go
... chapters to review

almost there... almost there...

20:46

2006-05-03T08:15:00.000-05:00

that's my time for CN tower...

i think i could have done better... it was quite the inspiring though... started off way too fast and i was pretty much ready to quit by the 40th's floor (142 in total i think) but you can't quit... there's no where to go

i guess that's how life is a lot of times... you think you can do something then realize that it's not as easy but you gotta go on... so what do you do? i prayed... the rest of the 100 floors up... asking God to help me... and He did...

i couldn't have done it myself...all God

morning of...

2006-04-27T09:05:00.000-05:00

as summer approaches and the sun is actually in the sky when you wake up... it's a good feeling...

ever realized how much God has in store for you every morning? even on mornings where you don't think you have anything to do?

it's filled with great stuff... great oppurtunities... the question is are you taking advantage of it...

this morning... is the morning of my first exam, botany... may i do well for His glory...

*studying : at new college library
*lunch : german sausage
*smiling : because i reached my fundraising goal for CN tower climb
*happy : cuz God made today "b-e-a-utiful" (Jim Carrey, Bruce Almighty)
*can't : procrastinate any longer

He still loves me...

2006-04-25T14:36:00.000-05:00

I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shinin on me
cuz I aint good enough
but He still loves me

I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best
But it aint good enough

Shunned by the world
If I don't succeed
Cuz I aint good
But He still loves me

If you aint worthy just raise your hands
And let me know that you understand
That we are all so blessed
To be loved, loved

Stand for Him and fall for anything
Cause through His eyes we all look the same
What would we do without blame?

Feels like we always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I aint good enough
But He still loves me

I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shinin on me
Cuz I aint good enough
But You still love me

- lyrics from "He still loves me." - The Fighting Temptations Soundtrack

- i'll try to get the song on the blog...

onboard terrorists...

2006-04-20T11:29:00.000-05:00

"That terrorist is Satan himself, who wants nothing more than to hijack our will and watch us crash and burn, destroying the hope and potential that God has given every man. This master terrorist escorts us to the back of the plane and says, Don't worry -- everything's going to be okay. He directs us to stay seated, keep our seat belts fastened, and do nothign to make a difference... God's standard of holiness is clear: "But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people" (Ephesians 5:3). This is a high standard for God's man, but it's the only one that leads to a flight through life in total freedom. I hope you're up to every man's challenge." (Arterburn, Stoeker; Every Man's Challenge).

attacked everywhere... attacked constantly... don't sit back and be attacked... be strong and courageous and fight...

*listening to : all creatures of our God and King
*learned to play : Everything Glorious - Crowder (Key : A)
*studying : attitudes
*plans : study and men's group, maybe go out for a walk
*lunch : salad and strawberries

everything glorious...

2006-04-17T21:33:00.000-05:00

"you make everything glorious, you make everything glorious, you make everything glorious, and I am yours, what does that make me?" - Crowder (Passion: Everything Glorious)

we were made glorious... boast about it... God loves you and me :D

the Lord is risen... amen...

identifies...

2006-04-15T00:06:00.000-05:00

during this easter weekend... let's remember that Jesus knows what we're going through and feels it as well...

He's our King... and He identifies with us...

God Bless

short...

2006-04-13T17:48:00.000-05:00

so i've decided to keep my blogs short... cuz i realize i don't have much to blog about newayz... to blog long will take me a week to do... short maybe a day or 2 :D

one of those days...
made so many wrong decisions in the morning, took so much time... i wasn't really in a hurry for anything.. just didn't want to waste time... why?

why do we rush when we're not even being rushed? or rush into things that aren't significant? *shrugz*

time to slow down...

CN tower stair climb...

2006-03-20T21:47:00.000-05:00

i'm sooo excited about it... never done it before.. been "training" lately in the gym... building up endurance, cardio, leg work etc. also some upper body but i just want to be healthy and in shape...

when today to the gym... a friend of mine saw my CN tower sponsor thing and asked why my goal was at $50? She said it was way too easy and that I can do better and need to challenge myself in that respect as well...

so now... i've changed it.. to something that I don't know if i can reach the goal for but i think i can... it's at $250...

so plz go to www.wwf.ca/cntower, go to sponsor a climber and type in my names :D (Samuel Wong - for those who don't know my name... )

so that's what i've been extremely excited about lately...

my life isn't too exciting for now.. studying and other stuff... nothign more to share about then the CN tower climb... oh and you want to join me at like 7am that morning to climb :D plz do... hahahahaha.. just let me know...

i will blog tomorrow probably.. maybe.. we'll see... maybe something more insightful...

thx for reading for those who do read this... :D PEACE OUT!!!

what was i thinking???

2006-03-15T15:25:00.000-05:00

first part of this is going to talk about my last blog....

what was i thinking? who I am i complain and whine and be an idiot about the people that God has blessed me with in my life...

learned a valuable lesson last friday at bible study... thanks leaders for bringing it out... here's the verse...well the part the hit me like a rock.. more like a bat... an easton thunder...

Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him. - 1 john 3

sorry for the crap from the last blog... i just had one of those weeks but it's no excuse....

i love fridays and sundays... the days i get to see my 2nd family... sorry guys...

so what has happened since lent?

going without MSN is ok, but tough sometimes when i want to tell someone something, but i just give them a call and it's all good.. :D

sunday stayed at church til like 6pm... sooo much fun at church... don't do too much but feels like home... played some softball (just pitching and practicing), some basketball in the parking lot.. overall.. tonz of fun...

been dropping by TC for the past 3 days... skipped 2 classes to do so.. but i did catch up on the chapters that i skipped and looked over the powerpoints... i should be ok...

the leaders that are coming up from highschool have potential... a lot of potential... keep praying for them.... they're good people...

i have so much to talk about but just send an e-mail or txt or call or something to chat...

blogs are fun... but i rather tell a story a million times then to type it out once and then that's it.. PEACE OUT!!!

people...

2006-03-05T15:37:00.000-05:00

found out many things these past few days relating to people and emotions...

people come in and out of your lives everyday, your feelings and your attitudes towards a person can change in an instant, people's thoughts effect your own thoughts about other people...

meeting someone can change your life, losing someone can also change your life, thinking of someone can do the same, listening to people that you've spoken to most of your lives can turn out to be a bad thing, listening to someone that just walked in and asked how you are doing can change your life...

friday was a good day... when snowboarding... sooo much fun, i'll have pics later... but what did God try to teach me? that i can accomplish all things in him if i just get up after i fall... never on friday did i lay down on my back or front after a wipe out for more then 5 secs... got up and kept going... learned how to carve... very small carving but nonetheless, it's my first time...

God wants me to rely on Him, NOT other people... he believe that I can get up and keep going when i crash... when you commit and sacrifice yourself to something that's hard to obtain, crashing is inevitable... but it's what you do when you crash that's important... God can help me up.... keep going....

spoke to a friend friday nite, for quite some time... first person i spoke to in a long time that actually understood what i was going through and could actually help.. thanks... people... God reveals them to you in your life when needed the most...

good saturday, when to the leafs/sens game with stevey, good talks... before leaving the house though, spoke to a friend... for a long time... good talks... people...

sunday, church was good, ash sunday... not only should i lent msn, but take that time to do something, to learn something, to find out what God loves and hates... people... that's what God loves....

i'll feel how i feel right now every friday and sunday probably... can't explain the feeling, probably won't say to anyone how i am feeling or why i'm feeling this way... one person knows aside from God, and i think that's enough... thx bro...

you love, you try, you go, fast, you sacrifice, you crash, you get up, you keep going...

God's there in it all...

lent has begun...

2006-03-01T23:00:00.000-05:00

hey all... wow... it's been awhile since i blogged... been really really busy...

lent season is not biblical or anything, it's just a time to give up something and to focus on getting closer to God and falling more in love with him.

this year i'm giving up MSN. Reason? takes up time and i think i can be more productive with other methods.

i'm not cutting myself away from the rest of the world but what happened to e-mail? phone calls? even snail mail? why all so much instant messaging?

i'm not saying MSN is the devil, but i find it more of an answering machine and if people needed anything they can leave me a msg.

personally, i think it's myself too, i'm not intentional on msn to really want to talk and get closer to some people.. honestly, i think there are better ways.. this is just me of course, some people can't live without msn which is fine.

but, lent has begin and i will begin to blog more and read other people's blogs more. don't want to be out of the loop on anything... because the little italics part after your msn name, if you use it, tells me so much on what is going on in a person's life sometimes, but details are the things that i look for

of course there is so much more for me to blog about, but why not send me an e-mail and ask? or give me a shout? i'll be around... just not on msn... never good on it anywayz.

peace out everyone... i'm gonna get some rest... snowboarding friday!!! w00tw00t!! i'll have pictures... lates all

been awhile...

2006-01-25T00:10:00.000-05:00

so it's been a long time since i last posted

tonz happened... Christmas, new years, new term...

not going to blog a lot 2nite, pretty tired. Just wanted to say that new year brings new things. New things are usually tough, very tough... praise God for brothers that are with me that i can talk to.

one thing to say... trust God... he's the only person that we can trust.. sometimes trusting ourselves just gets us in trouble...

trust God

procrastinating...

2005-12-15T21:28:00.000-05:00

as i procrastinate while studying, gonna make you guys work too if you're bored...

not as smart as james to give 5 questions of different difficulty so here's one on what i'm studying.. same format as jeopardy but every question is final jeopardy.. you can use google if you want... so... everyone starts with $1000, top 3 people move on to next round... make your "bets" and find the answer....

subject - botany

answer : this polymer is a desiccation and decay resistant polymer that is common in the fern reproductive cycle.

so much to say... no time...

2005-12-15T10:43:00.000-05:00

alrite.. so at the library... studying... i'm doing more studying now with my parents away then i've ever had with my parents here... i dont' get it..

newayz... list of things i have to have to blog about after exams... cuz knowing my memory i'll forget

- durham college
- piano recital

wow i think that's it.. and here i am thinking my life was more interesting then that... *sigh* guess not...

so something to think about which i won't think bout... why do we call on the highway the collector lane collectors?? i had an explantion and i told our reverand T^2 but he wouldnt' believe me so i guess i'm wrong... meh...

back to studying.. peace out

THANKS HAMILTON!!!!

2005-12-06T11:28:00.000-05:00

so it's been way too long since i've blogged... mite have thought i died off since my family left to HK but i'm still alive and well :P

went to hamilton this pass weekend.. awesome time.. had great talks with sisters and what not... hahahahaha... all we talked about was relationships and guys and girls perspectives of things... i wish i knew these things earlier...

did you know that carnations are only for mothers?? why do we give the cheap stuff to only our moms?? what the crap?? - still don't get it...

ccf was nice... got to be the judge their cook off... pretty good food... with the beef and chicken but i think the chick peas got me sick... chick peas are bad stuff....

really felt like living away with school chums this past weekend... enjoyed it a lot... studying together, playing games together, staying up, cooking etc. - don't get that too often at home.. maybe if God puts me in loo next year, i'll be the best roommate EVER!!! serious....

again.. thx hamilton.. you guys ROCK!!!!

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so christmas is upon us and all these parties, dinners and gatherings are coming up again... i think i'm really going to make an effort into having meaningful conversations about what christmas is about.. even with christian friends...

like many times i feel like my convos and quality times i spend with friends are talking about sports or video games... which is fun but i think i can go deeper... it'll be weird though and super uncomfortable... but maybe i'll give it a shot....

too bad i'm done on the 20th.. gives me like 4 days before christmas... *sigh* ah well.. that's UT life for ya

but that's my goal.. more Jesus talking and less of me...

read off of will's blog about the gifts thing... it's sooo true... i have cards and what not to give out but honestly.. i nice dinner with a few friends is even better... i want to share this beautiful time with all of you guys... not with gifts that i mite get... i like reading cards.. meaningful ones.. there's one brother that i look forward to getting a card every year... you can guess it... one of our lumas MAP's as well as leader this year... awesome younger brother.. so much respect... God Bless you D.H.!

God is good and it's a good season rite now to continue in the good things God is doing in relationships and friendships etc. it's not just this season to do it.. but every season.. but let's start now for those like me who haven't done too much... but if you ask me to go skatting... plz remember that i don't know how.. and I SUCK!!! and i need to learn... i'll learn.. jsut don't laugh unless i'm laughing... which happens almost 99% :)

take care peeps.. study hard for exams but don't forget bout priorities.. family and friends... you guys are smart... i know you knwo that already.. PEACE OUT!!! GOD BLESS EVERYONE!!!

i love you, take care

2005-11-23T13:55:00.000-05:00

so my parents left this morning at 5am to go to HK for 4 weeks.. gonna miss them. love them sooo much.. awesome :) and left me soo much microwave dinners. *sigh* i'm still their little boy, don't ever want me to use the stove cuz they're scared i'll burn the house down...

so for the next 4 weeks i'll be home alone most of the time, just probably studying and what not, eating what i can :P etc. etc. but it'll be good.. have the car daily. which is something I never had ever so that'll be awesome but i will miss my parents

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astronomical grace :

have you ever thought that there are times that God can't forgive you? i know i have and sometimes i still do, but the truth with that is that's impossible

louie yesterday at passion brought this to my attention, again, man God spoke last nite, (check out pics here)

psalm 103 - wow... such beautiful words from the psalmist... but here's what i want to focus on, i won't explain, just meditate and imagine these words...

8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.

9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;

10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.

11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;

12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

- beautiful...

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passion TO

last nite was awesome, God is here today, in TO and ontario and Canada and he wants to do something with us.. he wants to use us...

to those who went - don't forget, God is awesome and he's big, don't ask, listen.

those who didn't - God is awesome and He's big, HUGE!! unfanthomably HUGE.. we are dust, insignificant, why not follow a God who is so much bigger then us and loves us beyond imagination., don't ask, listen.

God is going to do great things. Let's join him

extension!!! WHOO-HOO!!!

2005-11-15T22:01:00.000-05:00

so a lot has happened since i last blogged... of course i dont' remember most of it but i'll try :)

here's the summary of my blog before i actually rite it :) this is to remind me of what to write about later.. HAHAHHA!!! such bad memory

1. microwave foods... soo much of it
2. new camera
3. late for church
4. first extension ever
5. lamp shade top - hahahahhaa.. can't get it out of my system
6. dinner with friends
...

so parents came home on friday morning i think before i went to fellowship with like 10 microwave chinese dinners (the big black containers) and like tonz of microwave dimsum... the funny thing is they told me that i have to treat this like a snack... like if i get hungry outside of the regular meals... so that's a lot to eat...

i got a new camera from my cousin... well it's an old camera that he's used before but he got a new one and realized that he can only sell it for like $40 on ebay (it's the same camera as willi) so i asked him for it and he was like... merry christmas :) so first gift.. nice... i would take a picture of it but that would be ironic... also spent another $80 buying more memory and a case...

woke up at 8am for church on sunday for prayer meeting but was extremely tired so i decided to go later.. however, didn't call richard to pick me up cuz i thought he was sleeping soooo... the next time i woke up was 10:15... and i was like... i'm late for church... this is the first time in like... i dont' remember the last time i was like... went to the piano and played and sang some praise songs but felt really guilty... did make it to church for the message, thanks dad, good message... wow

went to my bible course today and found out that the prof will not be here next week because of a conference, also same day that essay is due... sooo.. we managed to convince her to give an extension.. first time in university life to get extension... wow... now i know how you guys feel... she did say that there will be a trade off... her exact words "if i give you another week, it'll take me longer to mark...." - that was it!!!! wow

lampshade... - check sharon's blog....too funnies... "butt crack ugly"

had dinner with a bunch of highschool friends that i haven't seen for too long.. praise God they're doing well... pray that i'll keep in touch with them this time around...

think that's it.. God's been opening my eyes to a lot of things... grown a lot even though i mite still be childish inside i've learned a lot... bout stuff... i know it's vague but don't know any other way to explain it :)

God is GOOD!!!

2005-11-10T23:18:00.000-05:00

so yesterday, dropped SOC101 :) YES!!! sorry all you sociology people... i just don't like it...

so now i have 4 courses this sem and 3 next sem.. but i had to pick one up for next sem.. thinking i can just do stats.. then realizing i didn't do PSY stats... so the STATs stats won't do me ne good if you know what i mean.. doens't fulfill req. so it'll be a waste.. so started trying to sign up for psy courses... of course.. they're all fill.. seriously.. all full

the only ones that weren't full were ones i couldn't take but i signed up newayz... decided to call alan for help :) what a brother... he started helping me search through courses to find openings that i can take.. and like 2 mins after.. he calls me and like.. he's more excited then i was.. told me to sign up for psy290 which is a physio psych which fits into 2 of my course req. to graduate from my program.. SWEET!! praise God.. it was full before but i guess someone dropped it rite there and then... GOD IS GOOD!! thx alan...

realized i'm too into plants because of botany.. *sigh* it's ok...

everyone's like talking about summer plans already... it's crazy.. so here are mine.. (mind you softball isn't on the top)

- enjoyed going to Calgary so much by myself that i'll save up to go somewhere this year.. where??
1. eastcoast - wanna have them lobster and see the sea
2. westcoast - was talking about it... miss vancouver areaish.. nice place..
3. san fran - visit my cousins (second cousins) and maybe LA to visit my other cousin working as archetecture
4. french bursary - was thinking about it.. but was going to go with friend but i think she's busy this summer with other stuff so many in a few years... i have til what?? 25 years old or something??
5. road trip to WHITE WATER RAFTING!! (i think this is ranked higher)

- titus tomorrow but only gonna be there for small group meeting and at the end to loiter, got a friend's bday to go to.. highschool friends.. miss them tonz :)

- that's it for now... rents leaving in 2 weeks... i'll be lonely :( but i'll be ok. thx to all that offered me food... u know the way to get to my heart.. love you all

broken - in a good way...

2005-11-08T14:33:00.000-05:00

well, just spent an hour reading everyone else's blog and i realized that mine is a lot like others that i've read... here goes

so this weekend has been crazy... weekend mainly sunday and monday... broken 3.5 times... literally... broken down into smallest pieces ever

start off with sunday...

alfred's msg.. wow.. and even before that worship at ETCBC... i was doing PPT for the service and as we were singing... i looked around the sanctuary and saw my family... mainly TITUS but others as well... i asked God what he wanted.. where he wants me and what to do... TITUS was it... to take care of them and to be a brother to them... to listen to love to cherish to comfort to complain to, to open up to and all other things that come with it... i love you guys and i thank you all for loving me back... broken...

alfred's msg... not just just learn but to do something... to have one pure and holy passion... to stop focusing sometimes on saying to myself i'm not ready yet but to actually do something about it... knowing that I can't do it on my own but to have faith that God can do it... broken....

talked with a close friend of mine sunday nite... realized that the hardest thing to do sometimes is to listen to God.. there are so many ways out... easier ways that dont' really rely on God as much as the hard way... knowing that I can't do the hard way without God... broken to choose a path that is probably better... giving up and letting go of something that i've been holding on to but maybe God doesn't want me to for now... tough to swallow... broken....

spoke with my mom monday morning... i was so mentally out of it i exploded infront of her but being my mom, she came to me and comforted me.. told me to let it all out.. and stop holding it in... i didn't know why all these things were going on through my life from school to relationships to personal struggles.... i felt like i cant' do it all... i even said to my mom that i just want to drop it all.. including my own spiritual growth.. but she told me that that's satan talking and the better thing to do was to drop the things that are stopping my spiritual growth... i also cried a lot during these 3 broken periods... and my mom said something interesting about what Jesus says about tears... i'll have to find the verse to share about that...broken...

just now at school, i checked my e-mail and got a rare e-mail from my dad. i guess my mom spoke with my dad and he wrote an e-mail that i will never forget... i will cherish.. touched my heart... felt like a letter from my heavenly father as well... i think it was a combination... wow... broken...

what i got out of all this??
- i can't do things on my own, only from the help of God i can
- bad things happen so one day i may be able to share and relate to those that these things have happened to before... to understand and to cry with.. that's what we're called to do right? mourn with those who mourn... (it's a long concept.. ask me personally if u want me to go deeper)
- God has my future all mapped out and the choices I make now that are the toughest i bring back to God... knowing that everything will be ok
- my family (biologically, spiritually) they love me.. thx ET, especially TITUS... you guys mean the world to me...
- anonymous - in God's time, by God's will, in God's eyes... longer the wait, sweeter the wine

broken... it's a good thing... time to let God mend and make me stronger...

one of those days...

2005-11-07T00:35:00.000-05:00

i had an awesome day btu i'll post about it tomorrow

dont' really feeling saying nething rite nwo but you know how sometimes you have one of those days where everything is like pretty good... almost perfect.. conquer some fears and confront some situations... and you feel good

then at the end you are required to make a decision about something and you end up choosing the wrong one that just bugs you the rest of the day.. yeah.. that's how i'm feeling rite now...

i had a good day though but not in the mood to talk bout it

siblings are blessings...

2005-11-06T01:12:00.000-05:00

don't have any biologically related brothers or sisters, so i'm an only spoiled child but really talkign about spiritual sibligns... brothers and sisters in Christ..

had an awesome talk with a friend wednesday nite and thursday nite... thx.. you know who you are and friday.. TITUS was AWESOME!!! led with the one and only jubez which did an awesome job through Christ, really brought back meaning to a lot of songs and praises that God has given us.. to really focus on what it all meant... had a good chat with a brother that nite too about just things..

wanted to speak to a friend but didn't get a chance to :( that was the only down part of friday nite

great bible study with tons of discussion... so good

great talks and memories with some friends tonite.. so much fun.. thx guys you all ROCK!!!!

can't wait for church tomorrow morning... should be GREAT!!! to see my brothers and sisters again... what blessings...

side note : going to drop sociology.... i think ti's a legit reason...spoken to people and got feedback so i think it's ok, also rents leaving soon to HK for like 4 weeks.. i need company.. :) and food.. :)

God is good... he's awesome.. thx to all my bros and sis' out there... true blessings..

2.5833333333333...

2005-11-03T22:37:00.000-05:00

from the movies to the tv shows to the rubber ducks to the juicebox to the jitz to the darts to the pacman to the cooking to the baking to the fudging to the frying to the walks to the parks to the carnivals to the stuffed animals to the powerpoints to the fireworks to the beach to the music to the songs to the piano to the wisdom teeth to the good health to the poor health to the bus rides to the naps to the laughs to the smiles to the tears to the good times to the bad times to the prayers to the books to the late nights to the good mornings to the shows to the chill times to the talks i'll never forget... thanks :)

it's in you to give...

2005-11-02T21:42:00.000-05:00

wow.. 2 really great things happened today...

first off... went to Albert's for weekly wednesday meet up and alan was there as well.. and what did we do?? not pr0n :) went through a few levels in the beginning.. mainly on level 7 and 8... but it was sooo much fun.. my head gets a better workout doing not pr0n then studying.. but i did refrain from continuing to solve level 9 at home when i got home :) cuz i was watching bball...

second thing... got stabbed in the arm today at med sci... lost a lot of blood.. starting feeling wooooozy and fainty, and nauseated... fortunately.. the nurse came and asked if i was ok and stopped my blood donation cuz it was basically done anywayz.. but i felt like those injured guys from ER

they told me it was normal to feel fainty and stuff especially it was the first time but man... me feeling fainty gave them a lot of attention and gave me even more.. the nurse was like "i need some help over here" and asked me if i was feeling ok like a million times, trying to keep me awake or something so i won't faint or something... i was ok.. the faintiness was only for a few minutes... so if you guys are craving for attention... that's how you get it done

newayz... giving blood.. good experience eventhough there was the dizziness and stuff but really made me think... i saw the needle go into my vein which i was planning to anyways to see how it looked like..man i hurts but it was all good... what did it make me think of??

well i gave like one bag of my blood today and i already felt as if i was going to pass out to maybe save someone's life... but reminds me of Jesus and him dying on the cross

he gave a lot of blood, all of his blood and like no one was there to stop it.. he gave it all for us... me, you, the guy/girl next door, EVERYONE!!! can you imaging how he was feeling on the cross?? wow.. guys.. go donate blood and feel how crazy it is to lose a lot of blood... man.. Jesus had a rough.. for us...

and the thing is, he didn't do it just once, everytime I (/we) sin, we put him back up there on that cross... wow... like we don't even deserve it... Praise God for grace and mercy. Thanks.

it's funny...

2005-11-02T00:18:00.000-05:00

wow.. what a day.. first off... first time i've read every person's blog that i currenlty have in a day.. and secondly... blogging 2 days in a row.. gotta be some kinda record for me

newayz... so as most know i'm studying sciences... and low and behold... those are the course i'm not doing well in... got to my "Hebrew Bible" course this morning and got my midterm back... let me tell ya, i was freaked cuz it was essay but God is GOOD!!! i did well.. way better then my science stuff...

man... like it's just funny how God just gives you something to boost up your confidence....

newayz... watched "Kingdom of Heaven" tonite with my dad after tutoring... good movie... like the "speeches" in it were pretty inspiring.. have to admit there were a lot i didn't understnad but i think it's a movie that's buyable.

you know what ticks me off?? not much really... that's why my blogs are soo boring sometimes... peopel tell me to write more about what i'm passionate about and honestly... currently... still trying to find that passion...

i've always been the kind of person who does "everything" as in a bit of everything.. never super passionate in one thing...

for example... let's say music... sure i can play a few instruments but not really passionate in any of them.. i jsut do them cuz... i don't know...

but what i am finding mroe interesting and hoping it to be passionate is to read people's blogs... extremely interesting lives peopel have... i need to care about peopel more... be a people carer :) and not be half-arsed in it but truly care...

of course i gotta work on speaking and what not... cuz i'm nto good at that.. but i'll always listen.. and treat you to a drink.. maybe :) hahahahaha... God has blessed me abundantly...

it's funny... i read other blogs and some are soo meaningful... is it just that i dont' sit here long enough to write something meaningful or do i not have anythign meaningful to say??

does that make me meaningless??

newayz... here's what i got out of my day... sit back, and enjoy life... God has called me to be someone that I honestly have no clue about... to do things that I don't think i can... to be someone that i didn't hink i was...

something from the movie that relates.. and expanded a bit further

"can someone have the strength and ability of a knight just by being called a knight?" --- "yes..."

don't know if that's true in all senses... "can someone do medicine by just calling them a doctor?" - dont' think so

"can we be loved by a God, just by Him calling us His children?"... yes

how great is that?? we are loved... you are loved.. i am loved... by a king... think about that...

slacking...

2005-10-31T11:38:00.000-05:00

i hate it and i love it... what's up with that??

there are sooo many variables that relate to slacking, when to slack, hwo to slack, what i'm slacking...

so here's one, was planning to work on an "annotated bibliography" yesterday for my bible course, so of course that uses the brain... decided to google up richard tsang's name for fun... well kinda knew he had a blog and website.. so googled "richardtsang" and found nothing...

so just went to site newayz and read blog... hahahahaha... genious enough to go to the "notpron" stuff just cuz i like riddles and there i was hooked.. i was still using my brain so i reasoned that this was good to keep me thinking... it's not just rotting...

of course didn't get anything done, went to bed and here i am at school still trying to get things done... *sigh*

slacking.. was i really? was notpron better for me intellectually then trying to write an "annotated bibliography"??

*meh, don't know... PEACEOUT!!!

sam

ps - fallfest 2nite at ETCBC!!! 7pm.. BE THERE!!! YEEEEEEEHAWWWWW!!!!!

1,2,3 - why am i always it??

2005-10-30T23:08:00.000-05:00

alrite jubez.. you got me

so 5 things people don't know about me?? that's a toughy... but here we go...

1. back in grade 3 i think i had detention almost everyday of all of grade 3... it was a good year... many different reasons... throwing snowballs, throwing snowballs at friends, throwing snowballs at houses, throwing snowballs at satellite dishes on those houses, throwing a tennis ball and hitting a girl on the head, usually involved throwing things... the funny part was... the detention wasn't even given to me by my own teacher... sheesh....

2. ties, ties and more ties... i'm a tie man.. have so many stinkin ties (if you need one, just ask me), i lot of "cutsy" ones to impress girls in highschool... *yuck* ps - girls are trouble

3. so i can only cook a few things... mainly BBQ and yesterday learned about deep frying... (hhahahaha.. willie and vinh... we'll do it up) - but yes, cookies are bad news, never knew they weren't fool proof - darn you pillsbury!!!!

4. went to port royal public school - rivals with milliken for just being in our neighbourhood, rivals with terry fox for soccer (sam's stats - gr8. 0 goals, 0 assists)(which we sucked at), rivals with kennedy for vball which we beat them one year (97' boys and cooed jr. champs) and got demolished the next, and rivals with macphail for bball (sam's stats - gr8. 2pts - FT% - 100% ... HAHAHAHAH!!!! we all know where i got my 2 pts from *sigh*)

5. i hate scary movies... detest them... just can't stand them... i was scared of jurassic park... all 3 of them.. *sigh*... so what i tried to do was watch "red dragon" which is showing now cuz of halloween and stuff.. btu still can't do it... had to change the channel... *sigh* don't know if i'm really scared of it... maybe just don't like it...

tag 5 people? don't know who hasn't been tagged...

so here's five, albert, justin, willie, steve, and willio
- NO TOUCH BACK!!! YES!!!!

alrite.. peace out for now, blog again later :) i'm getting the hang of this blogging stuff.. hahahahaha

smo

sickness is your body's way of telling you to slow down...

2005-10-20T12:52:00.000-05:00

so i was talking to a friend the other day and i realized that i'm having trouble breathing..

don't really knwo the reason, dont' think i'm sick or nething but usually for most peopel at least, breathing shouldn't be anything that we're conscious about.. it jsut happens

for me... i can breath and stuff but never a full breath.. you knwo what i mean? always seems like i can take more in

i really have to concentrate on it now and try to get that full breath once in awhile and it's like the slowest breath that i take... and i hold it when i get it (sometimes i dont' reach it...)

so when i do reach it i hold it.. as long as i can for the breath... man it feels good when i get it

life goes by sooo fast and there's soo much that needs to be done... work, school, church, family, friends, school, readings, more readings... and then some more readings (and this is only SOC101 - so many readings... ) newayz...

gotta slow down...

reminds me of living life... and my relationship with God...

God gives us the breath of life.. which to me means a lot mroe now and is more literal then oxygen and stuff like that...

yes, i do my best to live by God's words and obdience and pray and go to church and what not without complaints but many times i don't feel that full breath of God...

maybe the solution is to slow down.. to stop, think about it... take the breath in and just pray hard that God will give that peace and satisfaction through these busy times... and when i get that breath.. to hold it... as long as i can...

still working on that in my life... holding on to God and just pure reliance on Him...

gotta slow down...

sam

WHOOO-HOO!!! PRAISE GOD!!!ll

2005-09-21T20:47:00.000-05:00

man... what a day.... sooo tired

pretty boring classes today which almost made me break my new years resolution.. the funny thing is i don't remember if i have or not.. but i don't think i have..

my new years resolution was no sleeping in class and i don't think i have slept in class since january :) and i've never really accomplished any new years resolution before so hoping that I can say i did this one :)

newayz.. what did i have.. sociology and botany was pretty dull and boring... food chemistry was fun but newayz.. not going ot talk bout school

so i come home like 20 mins ago, checking my e-mail and what not when i get a call from a parent who wants me to tutor their daughter :) yupyup...

soooo.. praise GOD!!! i'm officially again a tutor and will begin this sunday.. a bit of extra cash in the pocket isn't bad :) i think i might have a few more but we'll see :) let God give

also had a good chill time with some ET UT boys :) thx guys for the BK... good stuff... and good chats

here's my small encouragment... listen to God, do what He says, and he'll bless you. It's true.. and don't forget it :) always smile too... makes other happy...

got work tomrorw mornign so that'll be tiring but dont' knwo how much longer i'm gonna work at no frills during the school year.. jsut too tough.. and if i get the new piano job (which is closer to my house) and a few more tutoring things then i should be set :)

newayz.. good nite everyone.. have a great thursday.. pray for TLT!!! PEACE!!! GOD BLESS!!!!

sammo

new start

2005-09-15T20:23:00.000-05:00

school that is, first week of school OVER!!! and everything's going pretty well

studying more :) ... kinda
doing my readings :) ... kinda
getting to class on time :) ... kinda
not playing jitz :) ... kinda
not playing WarIII :) ... seriously, gave disks to rents :)
no TV :) ... actually watching too much.. SO NO TV!!! seriously, no TV, or at least NO remote control :) again... self control needed...

so after not getting into waterloo for optometry, i am determined to study harder and volunteer more to get in next year. I believe the reason I didn't get in was due to lack of experience so going to call up a few departments at school and in different hospitals to see where I can volunteer. :) praying hard that God has something prepared for me. I think i'm even willing to mop the floor at like an eye clinic :) and if you know anyone that owns an eye clinic :) plz let me know... hahahahaha

speaking about work, still working at piano and no frills. Not as many hours as before but still making a good amount a month for part time i guess :) so praise God for that.

got a call today from another piano centre closer to my house (not in mississauga) and i have an interview next tuesday :). the hardest thing is i guess i have to quit the one in mississauga (company policies) and i'm going to miss those kids sooo much. but working closer to home has a lot of advantages as well

God has also blessed me with tons of oppurtunities to tutor and i'm taking every single one of them. none of them are confirmed yet though but hopefully in a week or two when those parents and students are settled, i'll get those phone calls :)

not much else, school's school... awesome profs. all very interested in what they're teaching (not like the ones that just care about their own research) but they really like to teach

still keeping my new years resolution, no sleeping in class :) and it's working out pretty well

b-day coming up for me, turning 21, can drink in the states now :) *sigh*

but that's bout it... gotta study hard.. tonz of tests overlapping in october... ah well.. that's life... and i'll hopefully blog about it :) GOD BLESS ALL!!! PEACE!!!!

sammo

...

2005-06-16T10:05:00.000-05:00

so it's been two months since i last posted, i don't really know why it took soo long for me to do this again...

a lot has happened since then...

i finished my exams for my 2nd year and U of T, went to Calgary and Banff for my microbio course (i would put up pics, but i don't know how), hazel's bday, awesome TITUS RETREAT!!! and a whole bunch of other things

unfortunately, i have been slacking off in my spiritual walk, the other day i felt as if i was empty, no where to go.. lost...

i was thinking about my optometry stuff.. an update on that is that i'm barely in the area of acceptance so i'm praying really hard... and i just felt that i can't do it...

as if i'm wastin my time, money etc. i don't know why, probably because i still haven't heard from them yet and interviews are suppose to be this month

there can only be 2 reasons why i haven't heard from them... one is i didn't get in, the other is that i did and they didn't need an interview

well, i'm starting a new devotional soon which dives right into the WORD, i'm really praying hard that this will draw me back closer to God as i feel i've drifted a bit away,

praying that i'll blog everyday too.. maybe i will... keep me accountable for doing the devotions...

this can be kinda my reflection kinda thing

newayz.. hoping to post up pictures of trip soon... just wanted to blog to let peeps know i'm alive... GOD BLESS!!! PEACE!!!!

PRAISE GOD!

2005-03-24T22:19:00.000-05:00

wow.. it's been awhile since I've updated.

I'm really not that good at this. well.. let's see what has happened since I last updated

- received all my mid-term marks, weren't the best
- changed browsers : from safari --> firefox
- got a sore throat
- fell in love with anchoives (i think this was a long time ago but gotta bring it up)
- changed layout of room
- haven't played jitz or poker (lent)
- recieved my OAT (optometry admission test) score

not much has happened but I have to PRAISE GOD and thank all those who have been praying for my OAT score when I blogged about it back in the first week of february.

i received the envelope this morning and I was soooo scared to open it. So my mom opened it. Of course, the scores are never out of 100 so it was just confusing. I ended up having a score of 360. This is not a raw score but a standard score. This just means this score compares me to everyone else who did the exam.

Newayz, looking at the chart they gave me, "360 - 93-95" i still didn't know what that meant so i read the side of the letter.

360 - 93-95 means that with a score of 360, I'm higher then 93% of all those who took the exam and only 5% got higher then me. PRAISE GOD! i was sooo happy. And I still am!!! GOD IS SOOOOO GOOOD!!!!

now all i have to do is wait and pray that they give me an interview. I handed in my application a week ago and it got their safely so praise God for that too. Hope i get an interview :)

newayz... gotta study for exam coming up, yes it is an exam, midterm actually so yeah, don't ask.. hahahahaha...

just wanted to say thx for all the prayers.. and GOD RULES!!!!

sam

the first time...

2005-02-25T10:16:00.000-05:00

so as i was walking to school this morning, which was around 10 mins ago from the station, i was thinking... that's rite.. thinking...

you know how some people say that the first time you ever do something you'll remember it the best? well i was thinking my first time for everything, first day of school, of high school, of university, of TC, of other things and seriously, none of them really stand out in my life as super important, then as i was thinking and listening to Hillsong's, i thought about celebration... i thought about BCOQ and how amazing the jr highs were and how freely they worshipped when they realized that how they worship only matters to God, and how God only worries about the heart...

then i started thinking about ETCBC, how our worship is on sunday mornings, we're very reflective group but less celebration, and i question why? it's good to relfect but why not celebrate freely as the jr. highs did? as King David did back in the old days?

as i continued to think, i remembered when was the day i celebrated God's love the most, and that was the day i committed my life to God fully, a few years back. I remembered when I layed down everything before him and "died". The first time...

wow, chills ran down my back, almost teared, and the joy of that first time just blew me away...

how amazing that would be if everyday of worship we remember as if it was our first time..

what i mean is that we (including myself) have gotten use to worship. in a sense that it's not what it use to be and we've gotten so use to the standing and singing that we forget why we worship... what is worship?

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God–this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.
--- romans 12

our act of worship is daily, and our act of worship is to offer our bodies as LIVING SACRIFICES.. to experience that first time when we did offer our lives... the first time...

we are STILL LIVING... we are not dead... we are dead to this world, but living in Christ.. and our daily worship should still be a living sacrifice...

at church, at school, at work, any time of the day...our life should reflect our worship to God,

i'm not saying that we shouldn't reflect and listen, but we need to celebrate at the same time that we are living, that every single step we take should be the though of sacrifice...

and to once again think of the first day we truly learned to sacrifice, and look towards the ONE that did the ultimate sacrifice... and to not just dwell on that but realize that through His sacrifice, we can now LIVE... celebrate...

tired...

2005-02-21T09:14:00.000-05:00

wow, after a week of reading week, i realized that i didn't do too much at home... barely did any reading

did learn a lot though so I thank God for that. Through friday bible study and sunday message the linkage between having a heart to do things, and are the things i'm doing right.

Having the right heart, that's what God is looking for in me. It doesn't matter to Him what I do and how much of it I do but it does matter to Him how my heart is. Is it real and sincere? am I connected with him? pondering over these questions i still don't have an answer but i'm praying that as i think more this week i really draw closer to him.

about obedience, wow, obedience to just understand the consequences of disobedience. Disobedience means slowing down what God wants in our lives. What he's trying to build through us will be hindered through our disobedience and the relationship will also be hurt between God and I. I think htat's why I've been so far lately from God, not obeying... i hear but not obeying and it sucks. But luckily, through God's mercy and grace i've been given another chance and praying that I will take hold of this chance :)

this week will be long, and a lot of studying which is important for me to do... but really need to know why i'm doign all this... 2 exams this week... that's bout it...

started reading the book of hosea, pretty crazy stuff... haven't learned too much yet.. but I know God will show me something through the prophets

Thank you Lord for your forgiveness.

oh my OAT...

2005-02-08T13:46:00.000-05:00

for those who dont' know what OAT is.. becuase it's not as "famous" or "infamous" as MCAT or LSAT or watehver..

OAT is Optometry Admission Test.

the OAT is jsut one step i need to take to get into school of optometry, i need to do well in this test, plus good avg at school and then amazing interview... well.. at school so far... avg... ok.. not oto goood.. not bad...

interview will be in the future so that'll take awhile... so not woried bout t hat too much yet

PRAISE GOD!!! helped me accomplish the OAT... from 8am-2pm exam.. WOW with 15min break inbetween.. i have no clue how i got through it without God.. THANK YOU!!!!

had to work so fast and so hard.. cuz so many calculation problems with no calculator is hard...

well.. PRAISE GOD it's done.. he is good.. in His hands now... :) thank you all who were praying for me.. u guzy rock...

PEACE OUT FOR NOW!!!! that's all for OAT>. nto much to talk about :) it was a test... and God helped me through it...

- friday jan 21 - (part 2)

2005-02-08T09:19:00.000-05:00

part 2.. here we go...

alrite... so after seeing the buildlign fo the stage.. we continued to practice our songs and what not.. to work out harmonies and everythign and it was going well... still kinda stressed.. but was told htat i have nothing to stress about...

it's true though.. i was so stressed that i can't do it that i forgot i'm nto the one doing it... God is... that calmed me down alot...

newayz... we began setting up the stage and what nto after lunch, lunch was pretty good but we went in late and kinda ran out of food so wasn't too full.. but they had like so much "junk" food which us vocalists werent' allowed to eat so that sucked...

we started to get really excited as the evening approached and with tonz of prayer it came... wow... there were 600+ jr.highs in a gym.. and man were they pumped up.. crazy... they were the like the energizer bunny, and never ran out of that energy and we were excited because hey, maybe they'll be into worship...

so the MCee's did their thing and pumped up the crowd, giving out free stuff and making hte teams cheer and what not and when it was our turn to lead worship, man.. a completely whoel diff. reaction... i dont' knwo if it was cuz they were expecting like a rock band or even jsut non-chinese peopel but the reaction was almost zero.

oh, before i continue.. rite before we began the evening session, the coordinator, darren, spoke and prayed for us while we were ina room upstairs praying... he called us the "rotten egg plants" just cuz... dont' knwo why but just cuz... and we were at the same time asked to come up wiht a name... now that was weird... well we coudltn' think of anything else so we went wiht "rotten egg plants" but took the first letters of it and called ourselves "REP"

tim tang told us that when we come up wiht a name, it shoudl be one that has meaning to us and that we can carry it on outside of BCOQ and with REP, it reminds us that when we're up on stage and off stage.. we are REPresenting our GOD and that's what we're told to do :) so we were known as "rotten egg plants"

newayz... back to the evening... the reaction was almost zero.. it was hard to swallow.. like i was just lookign at them in the crowd and they just werent' interested... after the evning, we spoke to the coordinators and leaders trying to figure out why they werent interested... we then realized that our songs were too knew and that it's hard for them to learn songs that quickly... soooo.. God, on the spot, challenged us ot change everythign that we've pracitced... man... wow....

so that nite we switched everything... well... at least the next set, put in songs that were a bit older that they would know and we went ot sleep that nite... havinga set for the next mroning... so we though......

(i'm in clas rite now so hopefully 2nite i can write down the rest of our experiences as REP)

few things...

2005-02-04T10:22:00.000-05:00

yes i know i haven't blogged in almost a week.. but there's a reason...

well... this is going to be short too cuz i'm heading out soon... um... first BCOQ stuff will be up at the end of this weekend :)

tomorrow is my big OAT (optometry admission test). 8 am in the morning... mad prayerz needed.. heading up to the loo now, so yup.. will blog when done test... PEACE!

found friend...

2005-01-29T08:25:00.000-05:00

while i was at mitchell's yesterday evening picking up hazel from work.. i bumped into a friend of mine which i haven't seen for year... like 3 years...

this is a friend i've known from grade 3 and grew up with till grade 8 until an incident happened which just tore our friendship and that sucked.

i use to hold these gatherings back at my place back in grade 7 to around grade 10 where it was just chill time at my house, wiht dinner and what not and my pastor gave them a small devotion, my friend, Shaun, came out too and he enjoyed it.

after the incident, we didn't talk too much, cuz it was hard, we both started drifting away from each other and eventually lost contact eventhough he on hte next street...

newayz, bumping into him and talking to him, he told me that he believed 9 months ago and he's a strong believer rite now... man, GOD IS GOOD!!! he was so on fire for God and just passion to change and stir things up around our area which was somehting i'm desperately askign for...

the graduating class of 1998 at Port Royal was a interesting class, we had whole lot of mix of diff. people.. and they have all been planted with the seed... but i'm praying hard now that Shaun and I through prayer and everything can talk and see if we can hold a reunion with as many of them as possible to really share our beliefs in Christ Jesus.

i'm hoping i can post up his testimony here when i get it from him... just gotta ask for his permissions...

that's it... God answers prayers, but there's still so much more to pray for in my community...

absolute HOLINESS!!! - whoa...

2005-01-29T08:12:00.000-05:00

well, so much to write..

and i still gotta type up the rest of the BCOQ stuff... so much for that too, but i shoudl write htis before i forget :)

alrite... so yesterday, EZEKIAL! wow...

so the day before was about God preparing rooms for us in heaven and how much he loves us but check this out, chap43

(this is after God's glory enters the temple, the temple of PERFECT DIMENSIONS)
v10 - "Son of man, describe to the people of Israel the Temple I have shown you. Tell them its appearance and its plan so they will be ashamed of all their sins. And if they are ashamed fo waht the have done, describe to them all the specifications of its concstruction ... v12 "and this is the basic law of the Temple : absolute HOLINESS! The entire top of the hill where the Temple is built is holy. Yes, this is the primary law of the Temple"

WHOA!!!

and this passage came to mind...

1 Corintians 6:19
Do you not know that your BODY is a TEMPLE of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;

mad conviction from God, if our body is the templ that God dwells in, he asks us to see our sins, our imperfectness before him but not just to see the "wrong dimensions" but to reconstruct out selves....

and what does God call us to be? our body? "the basic law of the Temple : absolute HOLINESS!"

our body must be absolutely HOLY!!!! its' God's basic law, before anything, that's what our body has to be HOLY!
alrite.. well mad conviction there by God, cuz i knwo my body hasnt' been very welcoming to God lately because it hasn't been holy but praying hard that all i do is strive to have my body HOLY!!

- friday jan 21 - (part 1)

2005-01-27T09:04:00.000-05:00

so most of the worship team slept over and diana's place last nite, really really nice house, it's like a hotel, pretty cool...

stayed up all night, kinda aroudn 4am, watched "fighting temptations" (cuba gooding, beyonce), that was a good movie... had bad acting and kinda bad story line but the singing? amazing... gospel.. WOW!!!

newayz... woke up at round 7:30am getting ready to leave TO by like 8am.. didn't happen, left at aroudn 9am but still had more then enough time to get to muskoka woods.. took around 2 and a half hours...

the car ride was good.. well van ride.. vocals in one van, instrumentalists in another... i dotn' know wha thte instrumentalists did but the vocals... pretty fun... felt like we were rock stars kinda...

so the drivers, tim and tim (tang and chan respectively) were the ones that drove us up, in the vocals van, all we had was like this pitch device on tim's palm to get a note and we practiced sinigng and harmonizing.. pretty cool... but it was still early so sounded pretty bad... newayz, that was all the whoel way up.. took a few breaks to watch "Shawshank Redemption", that's a good movie too... but didnt' get to finsih it... it's ok...

we got to muskoka woods at around 11:30 - 12pm, it was nice place.. beautiful scenery.. nto too cold actually, not as winding as TO, but temperature wise it was cold

newayz... found out where they were holding the sessiosn and we brought all our instruments into the "gym" and WOW!!! they were buildling the stage.. literally... BUILDING IT!! was just a few blocks or lik a riser.. but a REAL stage... cutting up the backdrop, spray painting it.. the fumes got to me though.. and jsut everything... it was like being backstage before a concert...

now.. that kinda scared me... i think i felt there was a lot of expectation from the BCOQ organizers that we couldnt' match.. just the band and the concert style was too much... i coudlnt' help it.. it hink i was stressed too because the songs that we have practiced were nice songs but really new to me and i wasnt' ready yet....

praise God that my team helped me through that.. :)

hwo bout i stop for nwo and blog mroe later.. can get pretty long... bfast time....

- ezekial -

2005-01-27T08:57:00.000-05:00

so i was reading a chapter from the book of ezekial this mroning.. and man... did it not make any sense until i thought about it more...

the chapter i was reading was entitled "rooms for the Priests" - chap 42. It wasn't long but i couldn't understand why it is in the bible... well who am i to question wat goes in or not but the whole chapter was about a room, and its dimensions and how big it is and what not. The doors, the walls, everything. it was very repetitive and kinda boring... but as i thought aobut it more, i got a different perspective on it....

we are called to be priests, priests of God.. to do his work and to listen to his calling and show and reveal to other people... now, as i read this chapter, i can't be more amazed at how much God cares for us. look how much time he put into preparing our room in heaven? every single dimension must be perfect. there cannot be any errors.

i think it's jsut the thought that God cares is good enough... that there is a room in heaven waiting for us that God himself built carefully... now that's a loving king.

newayz... it's 9 am rite now... tired... but it's ok... glad i'm not just sleeping in anymore... still gotta blog abotu avalanche.. maybe i'll do some of it now.. or rite after this.. jsut the first nite... before i forget everything....

LET'S DO THIS!!!

2005-01-27T01:42:00.000-05:00

first off.. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!

alan and albert, sorry.. i did blog... no treating next wedneday WINGS!!!! nice... seriously boys... these wednesday dinners are GREAT!!! dont' like rushing some of htem though.. due to exams.. HAHAHHA!!! u the man alan... and the pizza still isnt' settling too well...

newayz...

tried anchoives on pizza today, for the first time, thx to alan, wasn't bad.. but the salami killed it... wasn't the best topping at Cora's... next time "tomatoes, mushroom, anchoives" - soudns pretty good though.. mad salty :)

today was CRAZY!!!

so i had 2 quizzes and an assignment due today... and guess how much of it i had done when i woke up this mroning? like NOTHING!!!

so i thought wake up early and finish it... well... turns out it snowed last ntie... so had to shovel the driveway... took like 20mins.. too cold... i need like super warm socks... my feet were frozen... newayz... i was lucky enough to get a ride off my neighbour this morning.. so Praise God for that... but the RT took forever.. dont' knwo if it was the weather but still pretty bad...

so all the waiting for transit and what not i ran through all my human bio notes... not too bad.. the quiz that is.. cuz it's still basic... glad i read it over though.. helped a lot.. but need to study more.. so one quiz done...

had a 3 hr. break til bio lab where i had a small assignment due... finished that but didn't have a place to print it.. so... good ol albert lent me his comp and printer.. and that was done. had a quiz in lab too..b ut it was at the end of the lab so i studied during the lab.. sooo glad i got that done and over with...

note to self : plan out weeks...

well i have TONZ to say about BCOQ retreat this past weekend which i will spend time to just sit and write it out... prepping for this friday's bible study rite now so not gonna do it....

also.. wanna share bout next weekend.. heading up to waterloo... OAT time... man i'm pretty not ready..b ut leaving it up to God.. well i'm studying.. but mad prayers needed....

thx UT boys from ET for wednesdays... i look forward to them... they're great :) you guys rock.. hahahahhahaha....

and thx albert for encouraging me to blog.. ti is fun...

it hink that's it... i will write up on BCOQ stuff and OAT... but this is it for now.. back to prepping.. PEACE OUT!!! GOD BLESS!!!!!

still hard

2004-11-18T14:22:00.000-05:00

WOW!! it's been quite some time since i started this, i think it's been 2 weeks but i'm not sure

still.. there's so many things in this world that still tempts me though to get in trouble and it sux. there's the internet, and just everyday living... man...

but keep praying... it works...

hm... something to share.. well i should have done this earlier but i forgot...

um.. on monday nite i went to play sum VBALL and inbetween games i was able to answer a few questiosn proposed by some of my teammates about Christianity. It was good

pray hard that we get to keep talking about this stuff and that I have answers too... God answers prayers... liek i realized i dind't have too many peopel in school and what not to share wiht and here God blesses me with a few to speak to

i just gotta work on myself a bit.. with my devos and prayer time... see i've heard workshops aobut this stuff before and what not but i dont' knwo why i never just do them like i should...

ne suggestions guys? it would really be appreciated...

what i do now is just read a chapter a day... like nothing very "devotional" and it's on hte bus that i read it.. tha'ts not enough...

not cool at all... but yeah... as i continue with no TV, well at least no control of the TV it's good.. getting bad images out of my head but like they sometimes stay in there cuz it's not being replaced with anything.. ah... need help....

i guess that's all for now... PEACE!!!

sam

i lost count of the days

2004-11-16T01:58:00.000-05:00

hey yol..

if u know what day i'm on.. plz put it ont he comment.. thx :)

newayz... what a weekend.. iddn't get much done.. had so much other stuff to do. which was all good

worked saturday mroning, then had to prepare for sunday service and also BCOQ worship practice... that was fun too

um.. sunday... church in the morning, worked at mitchell's int he afternoon and then business dinner at nite...

and here i am now... on a monday nite.. jsut got home from VBALL.. which was fun... pretty tired... body's aching.. which is a good thing.. gotta work out.... hahahahhaaa.. got a bit injured today.. well jsut one collision.. bit my tongue... ouch.. and banged up knee.. but my fingers are good :)

what else... very involved wiht church stuff all of a sudden.. enjoy it a lot. but have to prioritize.. started studyign for exams.. good old biochem and biology.. so much fun.. hahahahaahaha

sorryl.. my life ins't hte most interesting... i'll try to do better next time aites? hahahahah

see.. tis' cuz i dont' blog much so i dont' knwo what to blog about... ideas? we'll seee.. take it easy guys.. PEACE!! thx for reading

sam

day 5

2004-11-10T21:23:00.000-05:00

man... i hoep i'm on hte rite day..

i know i havne't been keeping up the blog daily... so much work but NO EXCUSE!!!

but i have been able to keep my hands off the remote control...

it's actually ok.. nto missing too much actually :)

welps.. had a pretty crazy week... exam last nite... man it was hard.. had tonz on my mind.. but it's all good...

lets see.. what else...

got an essay back today.,.. didn't do too well but the whole class didnt' do too well.. man... dont' like markers.. soo picky...

hmmm... keep praying hard guys.. thx for all those who are praying for me... :)

means tonz... sorry.. my life isnt' too intersting... dont' do much but school... HAHAHAHAH!!!!

and nothign much happens in school... not yet at least...

well first sem is like over in one month.. WHOA!!! that's quick... i love it.. hahahah eventhough i'm nto ready for the finals, i want to get a few classes over and done with so next sem i get 2 DAYS OFF!!! that's rite... 2 DAYS!!! w00t w00t

hmmm... been procrastinating in getting my optometry stuff done....

will do by end of the week... it's a lot though....

my advice for all you reading out there : don't give up - it's simple to do.. but it's not worth it.. PEACE OUT!!!

sammo

day 3

2004-11-08T02:04:00.000-05:00

hey all

well.. it's been 3 days, nto too bad... pretty easy actually... it's not that i dont' get to watch TV so it's ok, just don't get to choose what i watch.. but i'm not a picky person anyways...

lets see... crazy weekend.. so much studying.. well it's jsut one course but wanna do wellu know?

church was good... as usual... had a good msg, about mustard seed... how small and insignificant it is and sometimes we think the same of ourselves, but in God's hands, and with his help to make us grow, we can be as big as a tree...

whatelse... sunday school was fun too.. had an interesting debate..

that's bout it.. rest was all reading and taking notes.. YAY!!!! exam on tuesday.. hosuld hav ea bit of time tomrorrw to blog a bit...

oh... and i'm going ot start memorizing scripture... so poor at it but i did well as a kid.. i'm sure i can do it again..

PRAISE GOD for a good weekend in general.. and another week of school.. PEACE OUT!! GOD BLESS!!!

sam

day 1

2004-11-05T14:22:00.000-05:00

well, i guess i didn't explain much of what exactly i'll be doing

well... the "fast" is that i own't be touching a remote control, this does not mean i wont' be watching TV, if it's on and there's also someone in the room, then they can turn it on and i'll watch whatever they're watching

this will just limit me to the things i watch...

how will i check scores? newspaper, online etc. read a bit more... increase my creativity....

newayz... this is day 1... so wa'ts happened so far??

rite now i'm in school, english class, kinda boring, sci fi and fantasy

oh.. read jeremiah 48 this morning i believe.. man ... moab's in trouble....

ummm... probalby update mroe 2nite, just cuz not much has happened yet today... cuz i dont' usually watch TV at school anywayz.. HA!!!

soo.... 2nite's bible study at chruch... so i'm sure i'll have more to say later.. PEACE OUT!!!

why u ask?

2004-11-05T02:46:00.000-05:00

simple...

tv for me at least... can ruin a life if not watched properly, meaning the channels and content, there is soo much crap on TV now a days that i feel it's jsut not good...

for me at least, many times i getted tempted into watching things that satan has put in my way to trip me and cause me to stumble, to lose relationship wiht God, my loved ones, my friends and myself....

it's time for me to say good bye to the remote control...

no more - "i'm just watching a game, i wont' channel surf", "it's only 11pm, i'm just checkign the score"

so... how long?

don't know...

but this blog will let u know what has become of my life when i say good bye to the remote control..

tune in....